A friend said to me in casual conversation the other day, “What’s going on in your life?” I answered the question by staring at her blankly (a.k.a. we were on GChat and I didn’t answer…for a while).
What’s going on? I fight a constant battle with myself over whether I should get into bed every day after work or go out and enjoy myself (push myself epidemic, remember?). I am at a standstill in my romantic life after finally putting my foot down and not recycling the same old guys who keep (re)appearing in my life. I’ve been at my job for eight months now and I’m loving it…but not much has changed overall in my life. So what’s going on? A whole lot of nothing is what.
I hate to say that I’m not satisfied with life, because as I’ve noted before, I am so lucky. I have amazing friends and family, my health, a job I love and so much more to be thankful for, and I do feel fulfilled…but how come there’s that nothing feeling? Am I allowed to admit that I’m bored? I’ve noted that I’m not the most aggressive or outgoing person, so I’m sure it makes sense (and is partially my “fault”), but is it okay to be so meeeh? Am I supposed to be okay with it, or am I supposed to be proactive and make moves so as to not be bored?
I know of so many people with jam-packed calendars and their lives seem infinitely interesting. On one hand, I’m rather content with a half-full schedule and half-time to myself, but on the other hand, I wish I pushed myself more. To fill those two nights a week where I let myself veg (even if it’s with friends). It’s a battle because I do need some ‘me’ time, some early nights, some rest. But I also feel like I’m at a standstill, in a rut. This has no weight on my happiness, since I am happy as I’ve ever been. Happy, but bored.
GIRL TALK TIME: Do you ever feel bored for seemingly no good reason? How do you get out of a rut?